Bath TIME!!

Rough Few Days

What a week! 

I have felt fairly defeated this week. Its just seems to be one things after another preparing for camp.  So proud of the teens for working so hard to earn their way to camp.  Great kids:) 

I was pretty much awake off and on all night consumed with a runaway brain.  It kept rehashing recent struggles of the week and I could just not rest.  I am praying for guidance on how to deal with certain situations but sometimes find it hard to see beyond hurt feelings.  This is a big struggle...seeing God in the midst of it all can be tough.  Thankful for my wonderful man who has been so encouraging to me this last week.  He has really been in tune with what I need here lately.  

Sometimes when dealing with conflict, its hard to remember that this is JUST A TEST.  That Satan is trying our faith and we have to see it through.  1 Peter 1:7 says, "That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be  tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ:"  This verse has been sticking in my mind.  When these trials come along, whatever they might be, I have to picture that TV in my mind saying, "THIS IS ONLY A TEST."  The end result of this trial is that through the trial, I can bring glory to God.  Its very hard to grasp that in the midst of the trial but I am really trying to see that.  How I react in my trial will either glorify or bring shame to my Lord.  Humbling thought.  

Most times I feel very inadequate as a leader, mother, and wife.  However, I am praying that God would take my comparison spirit away and just show me who and what I need to be according to HIM.  

This was kinda a jumbled mess of thoughts but its what was on my mind. 

If blogging were a class...I would fail.

I have had this blog for nearly 2 years and I have written less than 10 times.  That is pretty sad.  Finding time for hobbies can be hard around this place and when you find it, you should probably be catching what little sleep you can for the evening.

I am officially the mother of  5 children. That's right.  Alexis is 17 and about to start her sophomore year of high-school.  Owen is going to start Kindergarten next year. Its just insane. I can't believe he is so big. He is such a brain too. Isabella is our song bird. Mommy and Bella are going to start preschool at home this year.  Olivia is our little crazy girl. She dances to everything she can and much to mommy's dismay, her favorite word is "no" at the moment. She brings CONSTANT giggles to our world.  Evalyn is a whopping 2 months old and such a sweet baby.  She is already sleeping 6-7 hours at a time.

Chris has a great job with At&t. The downside is long hours.  He works pretty much non-stop most days. Days off are cherished in the Ott family.  I stay at home currently but I am finishing up my Paralegal Studies degree in the 2013-2014 school year.  I am so excited and if I do say so...proud of myself for doing this with 5 kids.

The Ott family has had lots of changes this past year and I only see more coming.  I am excited for this season in my life where I have had my children and now I get to sit back(or run around like a crazy person:) and watch them grow up.  Its a sweet season....and a sweet life.